changing me...
recently already developed a habit... back home by 11. sleep at 12. promised myself to change this...and i find it comfy with that..and i think....it's better so.... the earlier i sleep....the less things i will think abt~my kor says, like this i can be more lenglui d... but i told him ..lenglui so wat....nobody wants oso.... :\ hah...
anyway, since i got 2 months hols...with not much working hours...i think i will hv lotsa times to do some personal reading... and i 'm looking forward to that. wat else can i do? make cards, more field service, clean house cook for myself, watch some program dramas, climb hill swimming....wat else? any suggestion?
Just came back from jonker, being forced...coz hv to entertain hometown frenz....but the whole while was like... 'man, faster end it...and go home''...
since 'tat day', i started to hv fear going out to those places like....jonker,MP even JJ...
in fact...i am scare ...
Scare... scare to see sth i not suppose to see... scare to get hurt again...and again...
there the phobia goes...and i really afraid to go out...
Home is the most safety place for me now. coz everywhere i go, it will bring tears and fears~
anyhow...am happy tat many ppl msg or call....to offer me to stay over at their places during the hols, and i am very touched of tat. it's really sweet of u all~ thanks a lot..i really felt warmth....in the middle of the cold nite here.
i'm afraid, this 2 months i dun earn enuf money but instead...spending more while going around places. haha.... ;D
it's time for me to sleep.. nite everybody..
posted by *LinLin* @ 12:02 AM
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i c...sleep liao ah...haha...ur koko wake up in the middle of the nite to write this oh...hmm...seems that 2 month is quite long...hm.....wat can amui do ah???hmm....amui dun play game wan hoh??then go eat around melacca lah....got nice things too eat oh...oishi~
p/s:those past thing is those which had became memory....a memory is nothing to be scared of.... ;)
z..z..z...continue sleep~
den u choose to forget , or keep it inside as sweet memories ?
things couldn't be forgotten...i prefer to keep...ervything... sweet or bitter .. but either way...it makes no difference. the road reach its dead end.seems hard to U-turn, only can reverse...there where's the memories flow backward..
Ko,it's not the memory scary..it's the things u gonna/mayb will see which is scary.. :)
hopefully time can heal, wish u all the best, take care...
dear lin lin,
sometimes the things seen r just to test ourself..it may hurt at first, but slowly as time pass by, it'll heal..yeah, believe me, time heals every wound we might have, deeper wound/cuts take longer time/ more antibiotics to heal..and the healing process is surely not a nice moment to undergo. it may be so uneasy that u feel so hard to move around. evrything taste bitter, every scent smell foul, and every breath of air you inhale stuck in your easophagus...sometimes you may wonder,what's life worth living like that? you love someone so much but can't be together,thats a damned situation,aite? you mentioned about cannot u-turn back,only can reverse...well,there's no point reversing back as you always had the something in front of you, which you are well aware of everytime, and this something makes it hard for you to go on. what i suggest is, put in your gear and move on forward,girl..your wound will feel like someone putting salt on it, but don't worry, the pain's once for all..after that it'll be okay.. let all that had happened become a part of your memory..a memory that'll not make you scared of anything you might see in the future. remember..you r now moving ahead...the point of pain you had gone through, instead of the pain leaving you behind and keeping you under it's conquer, now u r ahead of it, and you are conquering it.. gambate my friend...all the best.. live life to the fullest!!!
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